Dear blog readers.

My life is a fucking disaster, my first time clubbing last night was fucking LOL. I swear to Buddha I’m probably not going to attempt to club in the next week or so. T__________T;; I would share the details of my night but I’d rather not because it’s just better that way. What I have learnt is that no one really cares enough about you. How heartless some people can be and will probably turn out to be, though I always choose to believe the better of people I am once again disappointed! I don’t know if this is anger or just pure disappointment, it’s probably the latter. Really, once you go through shit that tests your friendship out you really learn to realise just how important and how much someone cares. Really, watching everything happen I do wonder who can you really count on to be there when it matter. Is everything a lie? Honestly, I just hate being exposed to the crueller sides of humankind its fucking disgusting and traumatising. Sure some can take it as a joke and others will probably forget but it’s NOT FUNNY. DON’T YOU PEOPLE think of the consequences of leaving a drunk out on their own? DO YOU LOSERS EVEN CARE? HATE me for being a whinge. But I’d rather have someone safe that in some gutter worse still raped or kidnapped. Clothes and being vomited on is alright when I think about the bleaker sides of life and low lives lurking the streets preying for their next victim.

I probably sound all melodramatic and what not, trying to make myself sound all good and angelic or what not. SO KILL ME. At least I can wake up knowing I’ve done what a normal person would be expected to do. Rather than be a selfish shit who would just walk away. Really, I’m just disappointed how things have turned out to be. Honestly, I wish I could just continue to believe the best in people but I’ve been denied of even that little piece of consolidation. 

Anytoots, I’ll try to stay positive and in the mean time fellow blog readers stay safe and well =) I MEAN IT!!!

P.S credits to chloeee @ SJ forums (icon) 

♥♥ KAT

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